I don't know what is more shocking 30 or 33! I say that because it seems like 30 was just here...and 31 and 32. How did 33 sneak up on me? Now I have to tell everyone I am 33-years-old!? I just don't know about that! It's getting a little scary. I can't say there's anything wrong with 33. I don't have a natural fear of aging or dying even. It's more like, where did 32 go?! I figured this would happen; really I did! The reason I saw this several years ago was because I saw amazing things coming in my thirties, which will make these 10 years feel like they just few by. Maybe this is true because I've been waiting for these moments (that are in my grasp) for what seems like my whole life. I recall telling my friend several years ago, "We started preparing for these years when we were kids as we played "house" and "Barbies." The dreams of being a wife and mother that were so uncertain and only a dream are closer than ever before. Every moment of heartache, loneliness, and waiting in my past has disappeared and has become what is and what will be. As I stick my feet in and splash them around in the "warm water" a little, I just want to jump right in and experience all the beauties of the summer water. But I've learned well to live more in the present enjoying each moment of spring not rushing them, because I'll never experience their same sweetness again. Instead, what is to come should come at its own pace. Besides, I do want to experience the beauties as they come for all that they are, rather than just on my terms. There are so many little things that are big things that make me fall in a deeper love for Matt week after week. He continues to surprise me. So many prayers have been answered that I faithfully just gave to God to work out in His time as well. I am overwhelmed with how God's plan is far more better and more beautiful than mine. So, Matthew... I want to "dance" in the minefields with you I want to "sail" in the storms with you I want to promise you forever I want to lose my life for you I want to lay my life down for you, for the life that we have found When you lose your way, I will find you When you lose love's chain, I'll bind you at the end of your faith to the end of your days When you forget your name, I'll remind you We bear the light of the Son of Man, so there's nothing left to fear I'll walk with you in the shadow lands until the shadows disappear Cause He promises not to leave us, and His promises are true So in the face in all the chaos, Baby, I can dance with you So, let's go "dancing" in the minefields So, let's go "sailing" in the storms And kicking down the door It will be harder than we dreamed, but I believe that's what the promise is for Along with faith and God as our center, I know we can make it through the hard work to have a great relationship. I'm aiming for amazing! I think we already are. I can't wait for what is to come for us and our family. Love, Amy (Song that goes with the above. The beginning lyrics don't pertain to us.) Partially written the night before my birthday, April 2 and completed May 2, 2015.
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