In about a month a year has past. A year! (swallow. silence. release some air out through my mouth.) She really hasn't crossed my mind in a profound way in quite some time. On the surface level, oh all the time, but not the heart stuff. Not where time stops for a small while where my heart hurts and tears fall. Today as I was winding down for bed this thought of it being almost one year since I've had what was my best friend in my life, in my life, crossed my mind and tugged my heart. I started to think about my year at a glance - its highlights! Each one I would have shared with her. As I panned through memories, each one tugged at my heart in different ways. I'm left with a, "You'll never know; you'll never know." You'll never know... In February I purchased my (first) vary own car. I was so excited to share this news with you! I couldn't wait for you to jump in along side me and go for a ride just like I did with you when you got your new vehicle. In March I met Matt, who I think you would have liked the most among all my boyfriends so far. I love this man and what he has brought into my life. My sister gets to see and hear the dorks we are together; we have so much fun just being silly. You miss out on that; I know you would have enjoyed it. The best part is we are totally ourselves with each other. We are on the same page with so many things, but yet bring out other qualities and hold each other accountable to them. The two of us communicate, are willing to work on the relationship, and forgive one another. I am happy that we share and practice the same faith. I know I could list several more, but what I think it would come down to is Matt and I share a good friendship and deep love for one another. May was a time to celebrate my completion of my Emmaus Lay Ministry Program. I was finally done with taking theology courses (at least for some time). I earned a certificate in basic theology courses. There was a special Mass at the Cathedral with the Bishop that you were going to come to. It was a very special night indeed. My family, Matt, friends, co-workers, and some colleagues were there. At the end of May I recommitted myself to becoming healthy and strong - fit! I so wish I could share this part of me now with you. It is so exciting! I had 13 personal training sessions that kicked my butt, but they were so good. I wish I could afford to do them all along side my weight loss. During the summer I developed and formed a habit of working out regularly. Although challenging and time consuming at times, it has been well worth it for many reasons. I am building a life-long habit. I refuse to feel old my entire life! This fall after much anticipation, I met Matt's daughter and his family. Although I am still getting to know her, I do enjoy our time together and her very much. I could see us all doing crafts and/or art projects together. You would have liked her. She brings a lot of joy to our lives. I continue to look forward to growing my relationship with her and his awesome parents. It has been a full year! And I am so blessed. As I drive past your street, I think of you. I wonder what is going on in your life. I wish you joy! I really do! A work in progress... Story behind the songs...SO GOOD!! SO GOOD!!
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It all started with peanut brittle. "It's not going to matter anyway." From there came a few peanut butter balls, which I made for Christmas. Well, you can only imagine what happened next. The no dessert or candy since September 10, 2013 lost its perfect record. Did anyone realize my secret? I rationalized my decision by saying, "I can take a little vacation from my fast for the holiday. After all, don't we make exceptions during these times?!?" More candy came while I was making my graham cracker home with my boyfriend's daughter. It gets a little ugly from there. Here's what I learned during my "holiday"...
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So this is me...I am a woman who lives with passion, self-reflection, and a desire to do God's will.
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