My desire to be a Godmother started a long time ago. That desire was being formed as my Godmother herself modeled what one should be like. I longed to carry on the legacy of what she (Sherry) had given me as I said goodbye to her as she left this world and the pains of cancer. Since my twenty-first birthday, I celebrate my birth and my aunt's soul at peace in Heaven. I have memories of playing school together at Grandma's and Grandpa's in the hallway at Christmas. We had countless sleepovers with making cookies, colored popcorn, back rubs, makeup, swimming in the lake, Leon's, and talks about boys, life, and faith. I loved so much about this very special relationship. While I've waited and hoped for this journey to begin someday for me as the Godmother, I've had the joy and honor to walk along side my aunt's two daughters sharing life and faith with them. There are moments that Sherry is there! There is no question about that. As much as I would like to think about what it would be like to have her with me here today, I can't wait to be with her in heaven someday. It has been YEARS of watching others go before me in this role. So, it's VERY exciting that I've been asked by my friend and her husband to be the Godmother of their son. This weekend I'll meet Anthony, my Godson. It's weird to even say that. It sounds so foreign yet. He will be baptized on Easter - April 5th. I think I was baptized on May 5th. I'll post more soon. Maybe a picture of us. For now I am worrying about what I need to wear that day and what I need to do. It's all different being on the other side of things. I know this stuff doesn't really matter the most, but it will help me feel ready. One of the coolest parts of my jobs is hearing the high school juniors share about their relationships with their sponsors. Some choose their Godparent. Forming a great relationship starts from the beginning. So, for what is to come! A video on the Sacrament of Baptism - I love baptisms!
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As I sat in the School of Ed Office crying about my denial into the the program, I asked a question that I will never forget. The answer meant everything to me, and it has put meaning to so much of my life. I asked the School of Ed Undergrad Advisor something like this: "Why does it seems like I always struggle and some always have it so easy and they get everything? I've wanted this since first grade." Her reply, "Amy, you know how to preserver. You know how to get back up when you fall. People that never struggle and get what they want, don't know what to do when they fall for the first time." I am a fighter. I always have been. Very little come easy for me, but the fight for something amazing is always worth it. The part of me that comes easy and I get well will never make a lot of money, will not be recognized quickly by most, and too many have pasted by. The other parts I fight for are my exciting, challenging ride! One exciting, challenging ride has been to date in a way most of my friends didn't. Most of my friends married someone in their twenties either after high school, in college, or after. Babies followed shortly after. Most of them are on their third child. It has been a joy being a part of their lives getting to know their spouse and family through the years. Throughout my course of dating, my non-traditional choice has been questioned. Now into my thirties, while it's not impossible to find a single man (not previously married), it is very difficult. I am far from the years when they were single and beginning their dating years. Almost nine years ago I really started dating to pursue marriage. The dating scene is totally different now for 32-year-olds (almost 33 yikes). So, as I've embarked on dating a man who's been divorced (and two before him and one widowed), I've learned many things. While I was chatting with someone the other day this is how it came about....I realized that my married friends have struggles in their relationships, too. However, when they sometimes hear about my challenges they may not understand nor fully grasp them, because they have no context to go to. The thoughts of, "Why would Amy want to go through this? She doesn't sound fully happy." could naturally run through their head due to the complexities that come with a man who's divorced with a child and an ex-wife. This is when some would suggest dating a single, younger man in the past. However, what I've come to realize is my friends are going through their own marriage challenges with their spouse from time-to-time. So, while I have relationship challenges, so do they. They're just different. I've just decided to enter into this type of relationship that is non-traditional. And although it may sound challenging at times, it doesn't reflect the love we have for each other, how happy I am, and how happy we are together. Do I want to experience your challenges instead? No. I've learned through reading that blending a family is extremely tough, but it is worth it. I know I'll never be prepared enough ahead of time, but I knew that once I found a man to marry that my love and our love together would be strong enough to fight for anything. My three favorites... Christina Perri, "A Thousand Years" Feels Like Home...in each other's heart Goo Goo Dolls, "Come to Me" ...My sweetest friend...I love that we are the best of friends! |
So this is me...I am a woman who lives with passion, self-reflection, and a desire to do God's will.
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